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LAST RITES -- RATED G [Dec. 11th, 2005|05:21 pm]
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TITLE: Last Rites
CHARACTERS: Shannon/Boone
THEME: Forgiveness
WARNINGS/NOTES: An alternate ending to Boone's life. This time, Shannon gets to say goodbye.

Blinded by tears, deafened by grief, completely oblivious to the shouts from the two men she has just left behind, she pushes through the jungle. Quite possibly for the first time in her life, she does not care about the way she looks. Her hair is a mess, tangled and full of leaves. She's left two or three nails behind as she claws her way through the trees and brush. Twice now she's fallen, muddying her clothes. Her tears are cutting tracks through the dried dirt on her face.

Shannon, Jack had said, approaching her as she and Sayid made their way along the beach to rejoin the other survivors. Listen, I need to talk to you. Something's happened. It's Boone.

Her world had started to shift out of focus then, colors running, sounds warping. The only thing she could comprehend was that Boone was hurt, Boone was dying. May already be dead. But if she hurried, maybe she could get there before...

She won't even allow herself to finish the thought. She has to reach him. There is no choice in the matter. No other outcome. He can't die. Not before she gets there. Not before she talks to him.

She reaches the caves and finds him lying inside the doctor's tent. She doesn't even register that Sun is there, keeping watch over him. The sight of his broken body, his bruised face, the blood--oh, dear God, the blood!--makes her ill. It is all she can do not to vomit there on the spot. But she swallows the gorge rising in her throat and kneels beside his bed.

He's still breathing. Not well. Not regularly. But he's breathing. His eyes are open. She looks into them, hoping to see something she recognizes there. But nothing of the Boone she knew seems to be there. All she sees in those eyes is pain.

Forcing back her tears, she grasps Boone's hand. His eyes widen, and he draws in a sudden, high gasp of pain. She quickly lets go, and contents herself with pushing a stray strand of hair off his forehead.

"Boone," she whispers. "Boone. Can you hear me?"

His eyes move, looking at her, and he slowly raises his other hand. She takes it, and a small smile appears on his face. Or maybe she just imagines it.

"Shan--" he gasps. "I'm--hunh--sor--sorry..."

She forces a smile onto her face. "Sorry?" she says through the tears springing once more to her eyes. "Sorry for what?"

"Mom...me..." he says weakly. "After...your fa--died. We...pricks...treated...badly..."

"Shhh," she says, wiping his forehead with a scrap of cloth she's picked up off a nearby crate. "Don't worry about it," she says. "It's all in the past."

He knits his brows. "For...give...me?" he asks.

"Yes," she nods. "Yes, you big dummy. I forgive you." She holds back a sob. "I'm the one who should be sorry," she says. "All the crap I pulled, trying to con you guys out of your money. You wouldn't even have been on that plane...neither of us would...if I hadn't..." She can't go on, but she has to try.

But he has let go of her hand, and has placed two fingers on her lips. He shakes his head slowly, and this time she knows she's not imagining his smile. "I...forgive...too," he says weakly.

She holds his hand and kisses it once, then smiles back at him. There's so much she wants to tell him, so much to say, but in the end, it all boils down to one short sentence. "I love you," she says.

"Love...you..." Boone says, just before his eyes go glassy and his gaze fixes on something a million miles behind her left shoulder.

"Boone?" she says. But there is no response. With trembling lips, she blindly lowers his hand to his chest. She reaches out and slowly shuts his eyes. After kissing him once on the forehead, she sits back, and, gazing at his face, finally gives her grief full vent. This time, when the tears come, she makes no effort to stop them.

Comments, criticism always more than welcome!

[User Picture]From: charliesmum
2005-12-12 02:09 am (UTC)
Oh, wah. Sad. :(
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[User Picture]From: zenana7
2005-12-12 02:22 am (UTC)
Oh well that was just so sweet. Hollywood ending, yes, the conclusive sad farewell.

I actually liked that it was raw and unsettling in the show, that she didn't make it back in time -- no violins. But I like your take too -- more closure here. Nicely done.
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[User Picture]From: teh_dale
2005-12-12 02:28 am (UTC)
Thanks...I think. LOL. I like the show's version a lot better, too. I'm probably going to do a couple more on the "Forgiveness" theme they gave me. I didn't want to go for the most-obvious "let's forgive Ana Lucia for what she did" route...so instead I went for the second-most-obvious route, LOL.

Blame it on my overly romantic nature, if you will. *grin*
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[User Picture]From: zenana7
2005-12-12 02:53 am (UTC)
Your route worked, it did!

Interesting about Ana-Lucia. She could have been a much more interesting character. So many of the other characters have subtlety and mystery to them, but with AL they just hit us over the head with log, and didn't make her remotely intriguing. Just bitchy. And I kept wanting to push her stupid bangs out of her eyes.
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[User Picture]From: teh_dale
2005-12-12 03:11 am (UTC)
Yeah, I ended up feeling cheated with AL. From the time she was brought in this season, I kept telling all the haters, "Just wait. She seems like a bitch, but we're gonna see the tailenders' episode, and her episode, and she'll turn out to be much more sympathetic than we give her credit for."

So "The Other 48 Days" comes around...and we find out that yes, they had a hard time of it, but she was responsible for much of that.

And then "Collision" comes around...and we find out that she's ALWAYS been a loose cannon, and there's almost no difference between her pre-island self and her island self.

I don't know. Seems like a waste of character to me; I'm hoping the writers have something better planned for her.
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